November 10th, 2005
Worse, actually… I did something so convoluted that only I could come up with it. Somehow I decided I was too sexy for my dreams… They weren’t aspirational enough for me.
Admitting this for the first time just now doesn’t make me feel any better, either. More like I need to do something about it… Which sucks.
At one point, I knew exactly what I wanted to do with my career, but I never shared the details with anybody. Least of all my family, who would completely freak out once they stopped laughing. After all, my father’s sole interest in me from day one involved making sure I would not remain a financial burdern to him.
So I judged myself and ruled that my desires were lacking… That this ambition was frivolous, and that pursuing it would be admitting to something my mother accused me of so often: Sitting on my brains. Psycho to English translation: I’ve been blessed with an extra measure of intelligence, and should therefore use it to its full potential.
Maybe they’re right, I thought. After all, I had to make a living and survive in this big, scary, adult world. Money doesn’t grow on trees, and fun jobs don’t pay much… Right? Where was Joseph Campbell when I needed him? Wonder where I’d be today if I had followed my bliss instead of those transplanted fears.
The good news is that I didn’t stray far. Although at one point I was an Accounting major (right on track for a future in alcoholism and suicide) eventually I couldn’t resist the allure of something better aligned with my natural aptitudes, and with some luck a career developed.
I’m a lot closer to my dreams than I deserve to be…
But it will take one more leap to get there — Yikes!
Entry Filed under: The Black Hole, Time Travel
14 Comments Add your own
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Neil | November 10th, 2005 at 6:08 pm
As they say on those sneakers — Go for it!
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Neb | November 10th, 2005 at 6:44 pm
Joseph Campbell is right: you really do need to follow your bliss. I live a very non-conventional life. I don’t always have as much money as I’d like to, but if I had a “stable” life with a “stable” job, I’d probably be a raving nutcase by now.
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Boudica of Suburbia | November 10th, 2005 at 8:17 pm
So whats this dream job then? WE WANT DETAILS!!!
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The Bombshell | November 10th, 2005 at 8:50 pm
(Thought the sneakers were all “Just Do It”) …But umm, I’ll tell you people more about it later on. Stay tuned! For now, I’m just going to torment you with half the story… I still need to do more research.
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Deb | November 10th, 2005 at 9:16 pm
Sounds like you’ve got a plan! As my old employer’s tagline went, “if you can dream it, you can do it.”
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'Chele | November 10th, 2005 at 9:35 pm
…I left accounting behind a little over a year ago…
Now I am a stage hand… Oh wow… “GOFORIT”
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LlamaKing | November 10th, 2005 at 10:37 pm
Does this mean a career change is in the future for everyones favorite blogger? Oh… and F**K accounting!
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The Bombshell | November 10th, 2005 at 10:55 pm
Hmm… I wouldn’t call it a career change exactly. There’s no escaping the fact that I am 100% Marketing Girl, through and through.
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Silentz | November 10th, 2005 at 11:32 pm
“I’m a lot closer to my dreams than I deserve to be…” Please never say that again, you deserve the best that you can think of. And hurrah, you used my picture suggestion.
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The Bombshell | November 11th, 2005 at 9:39 am
I didn’t mean that as a put-down, but rather an acknowledgement of the fact that normally when people bypass their true dreams in favor of something more practical, they later end up in a position where their original aspirations are almost entirely out of reach…
I’m more fortunate because I didn’t stray too far.
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Jenny | November 11th, 2005 at 10:06 am
I wish I had a nice comfy job, but I do not… I am a mommy, and it sux. YAY FOR CAREER PEOPLE! *Did I just rant off subject?*
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Chaz | November 11th, 2005 at 10:36 am
I’ve found that over the years I’ve become a little too lackadaisical. I believe it can be summed up best in the words of from “That 70s Show” when he said, “Yeah. Imagine what I could do if I only applied myself. Oh, well. Guess we’ll never know.” Well, hopefully, I can force myself out of apathy and into action, and hopefully, I can do that before I have to embark on my life’s career. I guess only time will tell.
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La Bella | November 11th, 2005 at 11:00 am
Girl… I’ve had one too many jobs. [Thanks to the military]
Everytime we have to move to a new base, I have to find a new job. It sucks, but oh well… that’s the life we’ve chosen to live. LOL
I’m 28 years old, and guess what? I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.
So don’t feel bad.
I feel ya.
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April | November 12th, 2005 at 12:46 pm
You have time . . . u have time. It’s not easy though, contemplating what you want to do. I feel you. I sold out too, got a degree in music, and now I’m going to be a social worker. Hmph. I agree with Chele on this one, go for it!
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