Archive for February, 2006
Now I’ve really gone and lost my mind… Signed up for the Inagural Half Marathon taking place at Disneyland in Anaheim this September.
So far, my training is going pretty well, but I can already see that the big challenge for me is going to be cardiovascular. With asthma and those years as a mouse potato to combat, even all the effort that I put into increasing my fitness over the last three years won’t quite cut it.
…It’s really cool to have a big new goal to work toward though! 
Continue Reading February 27th, 2006
A week ago I had another one of those skin treatments… This one was at least twice as intense as the last.
I’m grateful for all the technology that provides better skin cancer treatment options, but Photodynamic Therapy is tough stuff. Better than being cut and scarred, but it leaves you looking and feeling like a burn victim for a while.
There are always valuable lessons to be learned in tough times, and I don’t want to miss out on any of them.
Perhaps I found one: It is only when my appearance is so greatly compromised that I come to realize how much I rely upon it every day as a source of confidence… Face to ugly face with pride and vanity.
February 17th, 2006
February 14th, 2006
Okay, I’m a few days late, but with the hiatus in effect I can get away with it, right? When I saw the topic this week, I simply couldn’t resist…
Ten Favorite Childhood Fairytales
1. Sleeping Beauty – My favorite fairy story ever
2. Peter Pan – Can’t forget about my first love
3. Velveteen Rabbit – Love sometimes hurts
4. Giving Tree – True love gives everything
5. Miffy in the Snow – Too cute for words
6. Match Girl – A heartwrenching story
7. Rapunzel – It’s all about the hair
8. Peter Rabbit – Naughty bunny
9. King Arthur and His Knights
10. Rumpelstiltskin – Scary!
February 9th, 2006
Who didn’t see it coming? I’m going to take a short break so that I can focus on some of the bigger things happening in my life right now.
Specifically, I have some health issues that need to be taken care of, one of them being an upcoming surgical procedure… No big deal, so don’t worry about me or nuffin, I just need lots of rest and relaxation.
I’ll be back soon… Promise!
Expect to see signs of life now and then. Maybe I’ll add pictures to the galleries or share new revelations. As for daily posts, I should be back in action toward the end of March or early in April, I would imagine… Thanks for all the love! It goes both ways — XOXOX
February 6th, 2006
Ever wonder how much of a control freak you really are? I have developed a new formula for finding out: Count how much time it takes between receiving essential information you’ve been waiting for and when you come down with a mysterious stress-related illness.
In my case, I collapsed in under 24 hours… Coincidence? I think not.
As hard as I try to pretend that I’m strong, my true weakness always finds a way out, and usually through my physical condition. Everybody has a weak spot, and that’s been mine. Asthma, allergies, you name it… It’s all just pain pushing its way to the surface.
When it comes to the course of my life, I am so committed to nailing down every detail. I believe far too much in the power of self-disicpline. I strive too hard to fill in the blanks. I hate waiting, and I hate leaving anything to chance… I find it almost entirely impossible to just be.
February 4th, 2006
Personal change can be a slow process …Except when it’s not. When you can actually tell that you’re changing, that’s when you know something kicked into overdrive… That’s where I’m at lately.
In trying to figure out the exact ways I’m evolving, I’ve narrowed it down a little. Basically, I’m done giving of myself to those who bleed me dry. You know what I mean — I’m sure you have a few, too.
What we accept, we deserve… And I might finally be finished accepting.
Furthermore, I’m starting to speak up more often when I don’t like the way I’m being treated. This is a dangerous one that usually ends up getting me into a lot of trouble… But, oh well. On the flipside, I’m also starting to more expressively treasure friends and family who stick by me through the worst times, and do what they can to help.
February 2nd, 2006
