Atomic Bombshell


Unloathing

September 29th, 2010

Have to admit I’m enjoying getting some of my thoughts out there again. When you spend all day at home with a one year old, maybe it’s good mental exercise to blog once in a while. Makes me feel a little less like a robot drone and more human. I guess what’s going to be hard in the long run is putting up words with quality and depth I can look back on without wincing.

Realistically, there are going to be times when I have nothing decent to write about, or even more likely, that what I do want to share just isn’t very interesting. After all, my life over the past year has taken a large turn toward the mundane, but let me tell you: that’s not a bad thing! It’s just not what most people want to hear about. Nevertheless, I’m gonna give it a try.

Read on for Day 2 of 30 Days of Truth:
Something I Love About Myself

Normally, I would rather go on about all the things that are wrong with me, but don’t be fooled into thinking I’m some kind of saint. This is simply a measure I have instituted to guard against my innate pride. The quest to continually improve just happens to suit my style. In the past few years, there’s a certain area my husband has encouraged me to work on, and although it’s true that this trait causes me a ton of trouble it also happens to be something I really like about myself:

I don’t give up on people.

And I can’t even begin to describe to you how much unbelievable garbage I’ve put up with in my life because of this. I’m always believing the best, hoping that things will change some day, and refusing to believe that people are forever set in their ways and will continue to be hurtful. That’s so hard for me to fathom because I’m so much the opposite.

I’ve never been interested in holding a grudge. Always seemed like a really backwards notion to me. Somebody was mean to you so to “get them back” you’re going to make yourself miserable? Crazytown! No thanks. But since I don’t cling to the wrongs committed against me I end up letting people who continue to abuse me remain in my life. I needed to find a middle ground.

Fortunately, I have an amazing Ninja to help me set healthier boundaries. There are even members of my own family I’ve had to drastically distance myself from, and it’s been difficult for me to let go, but now I realize how peaceful life can (should?) be without them constantly tearing me down.

Yet despite these new methods of managing unhealthy relationships, I will always remain the girl who won’t give up on you. I’ll always be hoping and praying for growth, reconciliation, and harmony… and I like that about me.

Entry Filed under: Atomic Bombshell,The Black Hole

5 Comments

  • 1. soapbox.SUPERSTAR  |  September 29th, 2010 at 1:15 pm

    Gosh I am also SO like that. Again… ask the father of my children. :/ But I agree that I do not think that is a bad quality, I think it is a good quality.

  • 2. Peggy  |  September 29th, 2010 at 2:18 pm

    I think it can be good and bad. I mean, of course I would never want you to allow anyone to walk all over you but I also wouldn’t ever want you to feel the hate of wanting to get back at someone.

    I’m glad you are back. I’ve always loved reading 😉

  • 3. Shelly  |  September 29th, 2010 at 3:08 pm

    Have I told you lately that I love you? If not, I love you.

  • 4. The Bombshell  |  October 8th, 2010 at 8:39 am

    @Shelly: LOVE YOU, TOO! 🙂 XOXOX

  • 5. JordaNinja  |  September 29th, 2010 at 9:55 pm

    Amen to what Shelly said



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